I have just finished reading Matthew, and I was feeling very convicted of the feelings I had this last week:
Last Friday I was feeling very homesick and I started to get these ideas in my head about going home. I was thinking “Maybe I should not come back after Christmas” or “my supporters would understand seeing as I have not gotten all of the funds yet to pay for my trip”.
I was in a real sour mood the whole day; I was dwelling on, and picking through things I didn’t like here. The devil was indeed placing these thoughts in my head. I realized what I was doing and I repented. I understand now how I let that sin into my head, how I let myself doubt God’s intentions for these next nine months. Genesis 4:7 says ” . . . sin is crouching at your door waiting it desires to have you, but you must master it” the devil is waiting for any chance to make me dwell on certain feeling, and doubt. I know I am here for God, and next time I have those feelings, I will be more prepared on how I should handle them, so they don’t spin out of control.
